First love.

FIRST LOVE

-tonette

It was late Sunday night when we said good-bye 

I knew right then that my heart would cry... 

You felt so cold, and it hurt me so... 

I loved you so much, that I let you go...

A love so true, it felt so sweet... 

For a year of my life, you swept me off my feet... 

I tried everyday, to remind you of my love... 

For I knew you were precious and sent from up above...

I held you every moment... I held you tight... 

Praying you would always love me every day, and every night 

But time went on, as it tends to do... 

And with times passing, I fell even deeper for you...

Your love grew tiresome... it tore me apart... 

And you broke every promise, when you broke my heart... 

I couldn’t stop crying, it hurt me so much... 

For I longed every moment to feel your gentle touch...

I gaze into your eyes, to see only gray... 

there was no need for words... I knew what you had to say... 

I held on to you, in the depths of my heart... 

Regardless of how it tore me apart...

My love still remains, through the betrayal you’ve done... 

Messing with my best friend, and having your fun... 

I stood by your side, though you didn’t want me... 

and I loved you so endlessly...

I still love you, but time’s mended my heart... 

But never shall your memory part... 

And you will always have a special place within my heart...

You will always be the first, who touched me so deep... 

And in my heart, will I always keep... 

memories of you and me... 

together for eternity...

You taught me how to love,

and you will always be my first love.

FIRST KISS :*

FIRST KISS

*special...

You leaned over and you kissed me

I felt my knees go weak

You leaned over and you kissed me

I couldn't even speak

You leaned over and you kissed me

With a passion flowing tree

You leaned over and you kissed me

Sparks flew that we could see

You leaned over and you kissed me

A touch so soft and tender

You leaned over and you kissed me

A kiss I would remember

You leaned over and you kissed me

I'm sure I kissed you back

You leaned over and you kissed me

With the fire no kiss should lack

You leaned over and you kissed me

You left me wanting for more

You leaned over and you kissed me

My soul you did explore

You leaned over and you kissed me

My heart no longer full of pain

You leaned over and you kissed me

Darling, kiss me once again.

H.E.R.

H.E.R

Hell Everytime Remembered

I want to scream and shout and just be angry,

The feeling of wrath burns up inside me.

I can’t swallow those words coming from her,

Because all of those are lies morbid as ever.

I shouldn’t be hearing those words spoken,

Because it hurts me even more and makes me broken.

Melancholy is what I rather feel,

Mixed up with paranoia I don’t believe is real.

I can’t put up myself to think it is jealousy and wariness,

Keeping you for myself looks like it’s possessiveness.

She can make you feel less solitary because she’s near,

And that rages me more, it gives me fear.

This fervour in my veins keeps flowing,

I told you I didn’t care, I was just pretending.

This gloomy feeling kills me inch by inch,

This succumb behaviour gives me a big lump of glitch.

I don’t want to look desperate chasing you,

I hunger for your love, I wish you knew.

I want to stop her with all my might and strength,

I want to stop this sentiment towards you, but I can’t.

THE FLASHback...

YOU SAID YOU'D WAIT FOR ME... I SAID SURE.

Now I’ll promise you. I’LL WAIT FOR YOU. Please say SURE.

END:

Staring at his hazel eyes, smelling his scent, listening to his sweet words, and even talking to each other are seemingly impossible. Even a chat on the networking site couldn’t do. He’s dead now. His bones buried beneath the soils of the earth that has lived millions of years ago, and existed even before all known creature. And now, all I can do is just evoke all the feelings that have stayed in my heart while longing for his return, even though all I hope for is the impossible.

THE FLASHBACK:

Years ago, I still remember those moments when we were together. A splash of water from the breathing loams of the earth, a pint of mud waiting to be caressed and smear on our soft and innocent faces, sparkle of the leaves that have dried while waiting for us to end the fun we were having, and the rustle of the wind that made us chilly and felt a little tipsy whenever it passed by us. You would hold me tight in your embrace, and kiss me on the forehead and assure me we will face the world, TOGETHER. You would cuddle with me on the swing on our porch, and you will whisper into my ear words that keep ringing on my head even when I go to sleep. You buy me a pint of ice cream when I feel depressed, and accompany me watch horror movies, that soothes all the depression I feel.

Those were just part of the packet of our brain memory.

Every little detail was noticed and every little action you do, I study them and make sure to myself that I get what you’re thinking every time you do a move.

THE FUTURE:

Impossible things really become possible sometimes. All we’ve got to do is put on the best effort we have and the best thing we could do, all energy fired up and all adrenaline emptied. It’s like the angels from above sent me someone to fill the gaps of loneliness I feel whenever I think about you. I promise I will love him whatever happens, and he’ll only have my heart. I will love him like I loved you, and I will promise to take care of him forever, our SON. <3