Forget.

FORGET

As I sleep lying on my bed,

I can remember the tears that I shed.

Remembering those days that we were together,

I thought we can last for forever.

I have to accept the fact that we're done,

But the love we feel is not yet gone.

I can't believe in something that doesn't sound so true,

Until you said goodbye, I don't know, I don't have a clue!

The rain cannot be stopped,

You wrapped your arms around me, I was shocked.

I wish we can bring back the past,

The relationship that will faithfully last.

As I open my eyes after reminiscing,

I've realized, for you I am longing.

I'm awake, yet still dreaming,

That you are my groom in our wedding.

HOLY.

How Our Love Yields [H.O.L.Y.]

Why can’t I escape,

These memories of you?

Is it only because,

I’m still in-love with you?

I don’t get the butterflies,

When we are so near.

But when you are with her,

My smile would disappear.

When you are around,

I wanted you to leave.

But whenever you’re not here,

I cannot be relieved.

I hate to hear your name,

It fills my heart with doubt.

But when it doesn’t come up,

It slips out from my mouth.

I wanted the lively songs,

It doesn’t make me wallow.

But when it goes sentimental,

My heart would turn so mellow.

I thought the scars you left me,

Healed so long ago.

But how come they begin to bleed,

When you have to go?

Yes, I did forget you,

But my heart probably did not.

Because I know in this wounded heart,

The bleeding will never stop.

KNIGHT.

A KNIGHT IN SHINING ARMOR

**te amo.

In this world full of hurt and pain,

I need someone who would help me through the rain.

To comfort me when Im sad,

Doing everything just to make me glad.

In this world I need a Brave Knight,

Who would never give up any fight.

A knight who would dry away my tears,

Telling me to overcome my fears.

A knight who loves me for who I am inside,

With him there's nothing more I need to hide.

A person who will still be standing strong,

Eventhough everything has gone wrong.

I need someone who is willing to give me more,

Someone I can call my Knight In Shining Armor.

First love.

FIRST LOVE

-tonette

It was late Sunday night when we said good-bye 

I knew right then that my heart would cry... 

You felt so cold, and it hurt me so... 

I loved you so much, that I let you go...

A love so true, it felt so sweet... 

For a year of my life, you swept me off my feet... 

I tried everyday, to remind you of my love... 

For I knew you were precious and sent from up above...

I held you every moment... I held you tight... 

Praying you would always love me every day, and every night 

But time went on, as it tends to do... 

And with times passing, I fell even deeper for you...

Your love grew tiresome... it tore me apart... 

And you broke every promise, when you broke my heart... 

I couldn’t stop crying, it hurt me so much... 

For I longed every moment to feel your gentle touch...

I gaze into your eyes, to see only gray... 

there was no need for words... I knew what you had to say... 

I held on to you, in the depths of my heart... 

Regardless of how it tore me apart...

My love still remains, through the betrayal you’ve done... 

Messing with my best friend, and having your fun... 

I stood by your side, though you didn’t want me... 

and I loved you so endlessly...

I still love you, but time’s mended my heart... 

But never shall your memory part... 

And you will always have a special place within my heart...

You will always be the first, who touched me so deep... 

And in my heart, will I always keep... 

memories of you and me... 

together for eternity...

You taught me how to love,

and you will always be my first love.

FIRST KISS :*

FIRST KISS

*special...

You leaned over and you kissed me

I felt my knees go weak

You leaned over and you kissed me

I couldn't even speak

You leaned over and you kissed me

With a passion flowing tree

You leaned over and you kissed me

Sparks flew that we could see

You leaned over and you kissed me

A touch so soft and tender

You leaned over and you kissed me

A kiss I would remember

You leaned over and you kissed me

I'm sure I kissed you back

You leaned over and you kissed me

With the fire no kiss should lack

You leaned over and you kissed me

You left me wanting for more

You leaned over and you kissed me

My soul you did explore

You leaned over and you kissed me

My heart no longer full of pain

You leaned over and you kissed me

Darling, kiss me once again.

H.E.R.

H.E.R

Hell Everytime Remembered

I want to scream and shout and just be angry,

The feeling of wrath burns up inside me.

I can’t swallow those words coming from her,

Because all of those are lies morbid as ever.

I shouldn’t be hearing those words spoken,

Because it hurts me even more and makes me broken.

Melancholy is what I rather feel,

Mixed up with paranoia I don’t believe is real.

I can’t put up myself to think it is jealousy and wariness,

Keeping you for myself looks like it’s possessiveness.

She can make you feel less solitary because she’s near,

And that rages me more, it gives me fear.

This fervour in my veins keeps flowing,

I told you I didn’t care, I was just pretending.

This gloomy feeling kills me inch by inch,

This succumb behaviour gives me a big lump of glitch.

I don’t want to look desperate chasing you,

I hunger for your love, I wish you knew.

I want to stop her with all my might and strength,

I want to stop this sentiment towards you, but I can’t.

THE FLASHback...

YOU SAID YOU'D WAIT FOR ME... I SAID SURE.

Now I’ll promise you. I’LL WAIT FOR YOU. Please say SURE.

END:

Staring at his hazel eyes, smelling his scent, listening to his sweet words, and even talking to each other are seemingly impossible. Even a chat on the networking site couldn’t do. He’s dead now. His bones buried beneath the soils of the earth that has lived millions of years ago, and existed even before all known creature. And now, all I can do is just evoke all the feelings that have stayed in my heart while longing for his return, even though all I hope for is the impossible.

THE FLASHBACK:

Years ago, I still remember those moments when we were together. A splash of water from the breathing loams of the earth, a pint of mud waiting to be caressed and smear on our soft and innocent faces, sparkle of the leaves that have dried while waiting for us to end the fun we were having, and the rustle of the wind that made us chilly and felt a little tipsy whenever it passed by us. You would hold me tight in your embrace, and kiss me on the forehead and assure me we will face the world, TOGETHER. You would cuddle with me on the swing on our porch, and you will whisper into my ear words that keep ringing on my head even when I go to sleep. You buy me a pint of ice cream when I feel depressed, and accompany me watch horror movies, that soothes all the depression I feel.

Those were just part of the packet of our brain memory.

Every little detail was noticed and every little action you do, I study them and make sure to myself that I get what you’re thinking every time you do a move.

THE FUTURE:

Impossible things really become possible sometimes. All we’ve got to do is put on the best effort we have and the best thing we could do, all energy fired up and all adrenaline emptied. It’s like the angels from above sent me someone to fill the gaps of loneliness I feel whenever I think about you. I promise I will love him whatever happens, and he’ll only have my heart. I will love him like I loved you, and I will promise to take care of him forever, our SON. <3

A Tagalog Poem 2.

Ika'y aking PABORITO

-2net

Ang mga kislap sa iyong mata,

Hindi mapaliwanag ang nadarama.

Sa tuwing ika'y titingin sakin,

Kinikilig aking damdamin.

Ang matamis na kurba sa iyong labi,

Panaginip kita sa bawat gabi.

Ang ngiti mong nakakatunaw,

'Di ko mapigilang ika'y matanaw.

Ang salitang bawat bigkas ng iyong bibig,

Matutunaw na ako, kailangan ko ng tubig!

Bawat kibo namumutawi sa aking isipan,

Ang pag-ibig na ito'y wala nang hangganan.

Ang kumbas ng iyong bawat galaw,

Susunod ang lamig ng hangin, ang ginaw.

Sana habang naglalakad tayo'y magka-akbay,

Magkasama ng panghabang-buhay.

Sa lahat ng tao sa mundo,

Sa aking puso na iyong binuo,

Sa ipinagsigawan mo sa lahat ng tao,

masasabi ko, "Mi amor favorito."

REMNANTS.

REMNANTS

when death makes it move...

I will never see your sweet little face,
or hold you tight in my embrace.

I won't be able to hold you tight,
or keep you safe throughout the night.

I'll never get to wipe your tears,
listen to your dreams or comfort your fears.

We won't get to share any laughs,
have home videos or cute photographs.

My eyes fill up with tears,
knowing you won't be here through the years.

My life will go on and I'll be fine,
for when i get to heaven you'll once again be mine.

Your spirit and soul remains in my heart,
but why did God have to tear us apart?

I WANT TO...

I WANT TO.

I wanna come and make things better
i wanna come just for you
i wanna come see you because i miss you
i wanna come to you just to stop the tears
i wanna come to you just to make you happy

i wanna come to you just to give you a hug
i wanna come to you just to stand by your side
i wanna come to you because i care
i care for you and I LOVE YOU.

A Tagalog Poem

‘WAG KANG TANGA …

-2NET

'Wag kang mag-alala, kaibigan. 

Hindi lang ikaw ang nagpapaka-"TANGA" sa salitang kung tawagin ay..

PAG-IBIG.

Lagi kang umiiyak,

ang dahilan, pusong wasak.

tama na yan, itigil na,

kalimutan mo nalang siya.

Buti nalang nandiyan yung isa,

Pinapawi iyong pagluha.

Pero paano pag umalis din siya?

Makakayanan mo pa ba?

Eh bakit mukha ka paring masaya?

Hindi lang nila nahahalata.

Sa likod ng bawat ngiti, ika'y lumuluha.

Hindi mo siya masisisi, ikaw kasi tanga.

Sa dami ng iyong pagdurusa,

Pilit ka paring umaasa.

Hindi ka pa ba titigil?

Parang awa na, tigil!

If we ever meet again.

If we ever meet A-G-A-I-N...

I saw you on the street today,

I remembered how I loved you yesterday.

I felt a little weird a while ago,

I knew it's not permanent, you would still go.

I have buried long ago those feelings for you,

But when I saw you, I haven't moved on, I knew.

I told myself not to gaze at you anymore,

But I can't, I want to more and more.

Those dreaded feelings locked up inside me,

Whenever I remember you, I can't set free.

I'm hurting in every possible part of myself,

I've hoped when you said you love me yourself.

Things have already been mixed up,

But it's not yet too late to fix them up.

I know I blew my chance with you,

But if we ever meet again, I would tell you ..

I LOVE YOU..

[ && only you. ]

[ never had it been anyone else except you.. ]

[ You... YOU... Y-O-U.. ]

DORM.

The so-called DORMITORY.
More like a PRISON. TORTURING SITE. MURDER SITE. GERMAN NAZI BASE. HELL.
URRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHH.
All I feel now is ANGER. But wait, let me clear it first. I don't hate the DORMITORY alone, I hate the policies and nonsense rules more, and what I hate the most is THE INTERNS HERE. Darn you fools.They act so cool, mature and all ANGELIC. But deep inside when no one's watching, THEY'RE EVEN WORSE THAN DEMONS IN HELL. GAAAAH.
I can kill people in seconds because of this paroxysm. I'm still humane, don't worry. I'll slice your neck using PLASTIC bread knives, then hang you in a 500-ft. building using nylon, or I'll just feed you to SUPER DUPER MEGA OVER hungry SCORPIONS with poison (HAH! Imagine their stingy bites, biting you millimeter by millimeter, and killing you S-O-F-T-L-Y), or maybe I can just make you drink a million-pint of Dimethyl sulfate [Chemical formula: (CH3O)2SO2]. TALK ABOUT CANNIBALISTIC DEATH? HEH. 

RULES. RULES. RULES.

Who would want to live here, like a HUMAN?
OFFENSES HERE, OFFENSES THERE. PENALTY HERE, PENALTY EVERYWHERE!!! 
(It's like the basis of living here is MONEY. MONEY. MONEY.) 


Let me SHOW you an overview HOW "WONDERFUL" life is here...

• NOISE MAKER OFFENSE-Php 50.00

--Just by merely saying a word, oh, wait, did I say "SAYING A WORD"? Let me change it, JUST BY MERELY WHISPERING SOMETHING, a whisper so soft even your nose can't hear, penalty is given to you.

• FACEBOOK-ing OFFENSE DURING STUDY PERIOD-Php 50.00

--You just accidentally opened an FB page and BAM! Gimme the money. >.<
Even if you would reason out that you would just give information about your classmates and stuff, they won't even consider. Even telling them that you're talking to your beloved family member won't do. What if you don't know the topic you've discussed in class last meeting and you badly want to ask your classmates about it? EISH.

• GARBAGE OFFENSE-Php 125.00

--They say "MAY PERA SA BASURA", (in English, THERE IS MONEY IN GARBAGE.) but why the hell do we run out of money because of this RUBBISH garbage? Why do we make so much effort to pay this and that and those? When we can't find time to throw for our scheduled date, can't they consider us throwing the garbage for the next day? BE HUMANE. *breathe in. breathe out*

• LIGHTS ON/OFF OFFENSE-Php 50.00

--Who would want to study in a room so dim you can't even read a sentence in your book, or exaggeratedly speaking, A WORD? Starting from 10PM, all room lights should be turned off or else you will be scolded and payment would be collected from you. There are lights on the study table, but DUH, it can't even light up the whole divided table, I won't complain if it's 200WATTS or something, but IT ISN'T! 

• TEXTING/USING CELLPHONE DURING STUDY PERIOD-Php 50.00

--Yea, I admit, TEXTING isn't a good idea during study period, and I don't do that. But USING CELLPHONE, define USING? From the dictionary, "consume, utilize, work with", but for the dormitory, they have their own definition, "EVEN-LOOKING-AT-THE-TIME-ON-YOUR-PHONE-IS-CONSIDERED-USING, JUST-A-GLANCE-ON-YOUR-PHONE-THEN-YOU-TOUCHED-IT-IS-AN-OFFENSE". 

• CURFEW, LATE/ABSENT DURING STUDY PERIOD, AWOL-Php 50.00 EACH

--There are just things inevitable. You can't always stick around following these rules. There are just some times that you REALLY need to attend late or be absent, with your MOST VALID REASON. 

P.S.
--I'm sorry BLOGSPOT/BLOGGER if I burst out my emotions of IRE, WRATH and RAGE here. >.<



TANTRUMS? Tell me about it. I can be the bitchest bitch in town. URGH! >.<
and not to mention, me being pestilent, violent unrelenting,pernicious, deleterious. 

Before I confessed ...

A Story UNTOLD

ssshhh. keep it a secret. *wink*

I always find something special in the things you do,

I’ve always observed every detail about you.

From the way your lips curve when you smile,

To the way you crinkle your nose once in a while.

Your eyes that hide nothing,

Your words that make sure of everything.

Your heart that feels sincerity,

In return I give you guarantee.

I wanted you to look at me like the way I do,

Because everything I feel towards you is true.

I wanted you to notice little things about me,

But in my fear of telling you I can’t set free.

I choke up everytime I try to confess,

Because I thought you would care for me less.

Not so sure where’ll this lead after this revelation,

But I’ll be ready for anything …even rejection.

I secretly loved you even before,

And everyday I think of you more and more.

I knew it’s wrong I felt this towards you,

And I don’t even know why I do.

I can’t gather the courage to surpass this,

Everything you do seems like a heavenly bliss.

I chose not to tell you immediately,

Because I was afraid you just feel pity.

I kept pretending by just being a friend,

Because I settled in something that won’t easily end.

Now I don’t know what to do anymore,

But I’m sure I love you forevermore.

Will just this be kept concealed?

The tiniest strength I can’t build.

And this LOVE will be kept untold,

So every night I’ll feel the cold.

Regret everything that was left unsaid,

And just keep hanging on a thread.

BUT I WON’T LET THAT HAPPEN.

I’LL SAY IT ANYWAY,

I LOVE YOU!

 AND I DON’T MIND IF YOU DON’T FEEL THE SAME.

AS LONG AS I SAID IT, AND I HAVE SET FREE.

AND AS LONG AS I LET YOU KNOW, BECAUSE I DON’T WANT TO HAVE

HIDDEN AND UNTOLD STORIES.

L<3VE. L<3VE. L<3VE. 

Following IS never a bad thing. *wink*