Moving.

How can I move on if every place I go reminds me of you? If in every song I hear relates with our experiences together, and it just can't stop playing in my head over and over (and over) again. If everyone I talk to I imagine that it's you, or worse I wish that it is really you I'm talking to? If everytime I see couples I can't help but feel envious and pity myself because I'm here, standing all alone, regretting everything that was said and done? HOW THE HELL?


I've finally found my path going opposite your way. I decided to go on my own because I don't want to see you again, even just a glimpse of you will bring back all the heartache I felt. When I reached the end, I saw you waiting there. How was that possible? I've tried everything I can to avoid you, to avoid every memory of you, memory of US. 


But I just can't. I. JUST. CAN. NOT. I can't escape visions of you. I can't escape my head picturing us together. I can't escape these feelings for you. I can't escape my mind telling me that I can't take you leaving me. I can't escape my heart feeling that I still love you.I can't escape myself, my own self in every bit I can to forget you. WORST. It feels like it's just all inevitable.

You keep coming back. You keep coming back. WHY DO YOU KEEP COMING BACK?
I'm tired. Aren't you?